I miss my eating disorder something terrible. I know that with big life changes (like leaving a job, moving house, etc. etc.) are going to make me want to go back. I know this, and I should be on top of it — following my meal plan, using my support system, talking about my “feelings.”
But dammit if I don’t just want to say “screw it” and plan out my next week’s worth of meals in an attempt to lose a few more pounds.