I enter PHP treatment on the 14th of this month. I’m still waiting to hear back from human resources as to whether or not my job will be waiting for me when I’m done. If it’s not, I told them I am still seeking treatment.
I don’t want to do PHP again. I gained SO much weight last time. But the alternative is staying at a job that is making me sick, sick enough that I would probably be in the hospital by the end of the year.
My goal for treatment this time is just to do this differently. Specifically, to stop forcing my own will and desires while completely ignoring my team’s advice. It is my great hope that in two months, I can return to my job in the woods stronger and healthier than ever. But if not…
Well, no job is worth my health and recovery, right?
(Honestly, I’m still trying to convince myself of this point.)